GOD/Devil, Who are you? Just a Human?

This is a small story. There used to be a guy, lets call him Lucifer. Yeah, Lucifer, Fallen Angel. But no, this is not the same Lucifer whom all the world know as a Fallen Angel, who revolted against the God.

Our Lucifer had many friends. Many of them use to rely upon him, for advice to counseling. He use to help them with his advice. He was all jolly and fun loving guy as well as serious guy inside. He like tending injuries of his friend, not physical but emotionally, where injuries always leave the invisible scars behind. (He could also try to heal the physical injuries, but then, he never dealt with them, as no such kind of cases reached him. :P). Though its different story, that very few used to come to him. As he always created a shell around him, which he allowed very few to come inside. Its not like he had stopped the rest, but he just wanted others to realize that their is a shell. Yeah, he always creates images of his as a person whom no one can trust, he is all stupid and jolly guy. He is not a sensible guy, and he never can be. This was his image outside his shell. He always enjoyed this when people use to point this out, and he used to laugh at himself.

One day, one of his friend (lets call him X) who know about his shell, was having conversation with him.
X: "Who is GOD, Human, and Devil?"
Lucifer: "Every one is God, Human and Devil."
X: "What the hell you mean by that?" (Sign of astonishment was on his face).
Lucifer: "Inside everyone of us, there resides God, Human and Devil." (Smiling)
X: "So?"
Lucifer: "Becoming God is way to difficult, mind it, not Impossible, but then for many, it becomes so much, that they start to believe, that God is someone else, and to achieve him is impossible, inspite of realizing that God resides within you."
X: "What about Devil and Human?"
Lucifer: "Well, becoming Devil is too easy, don't you think so. All you have to do is Fall to the darkness and that can be accomplished easily. Now don't ask how, because you also know the answer."
X: "OK, I accept it. So who is Human then?"
Lucifer: "Becoming Human is in between these two paths. Its like, someone who can't become God and neither wanna become Devil chose to stay as Human. Still, attaining Humanity is also difficult, and those who fails to do so, falls into darkness and thus becomes Devil."

X: "So what are you then?"
Lucifer: "I am Devil."
X: "But how?"
Lucifer: "Because I don't wanna be God. And human suffers a lot, because they don't understand humanity and when they fall, they make others suffer as well along with them. Its better that people assume me as Devil then they won't complain either. Yeah, am choosing the easiest path to survive. :D"
X: "But you are so good at making others feel ease when they talk their Heart out to you."
Lucifer: "I just tell them which they don't hear through their heart. All I do is make them hear their Heart, and I say answers which they already know. They suffer because they don't follow the path to attain Pure Humanity and they curse the Devils who makes them suffer, but then little they realize that its their own feelings which is making them suffer. And being a Devil myself, I know this. :)"
X: "So thats makes you Human."
Lucifer: "Remember, always, I am Fallen Angel. I can't become Human. And neither I want to become one. I like this, being Devil and thus I can understand others."
X: "So whats the path to attain atleast Pure Humanity?"
Lucifer: "Always be positive. Whatever happens, happens for some reason. Analyze the situation and extract the Positive part, Learn from it, and leave behind all the negative aspects. That way, your suffering will reduce to nothing. But here, only people fails to accept. They will continue to grieve for all the bad that happened to them, inspite of realizing that things would have been worst. And they should Thank the God, for making them learn something New."
X: "So you do believe in God."
Lucifer: "Yup, I do."
X: "Then why you are Devil?"
Lucifer: "Because, very few listen to the God, rest listen to some Devils like me. Ha Ha Ha. And also, Devil are afraid of Gods you see."
X: "So can I become Devil myself?"
Lucifer: "I will suggest you not to fall. Try to be Human, otherwise we will become Many, and true Happiness will be lost somewhere in time."

I don't know, what to explain thorough this or make you understand. Its something which we all have to understand ourselves. Life is not too easy, neither too hard. But still, we ourselves try to make them hard by repeating the same mistakes and not learning from the past. I am not saying, one should look back at the past, because when you will learn something from some incident, and move on, you will never have to look back. All of us dream to have beautiful life, but very few try to strive for it. And just dreaming and doing nothing becomes the source of suffering gradually and when we do realize it, it already gets too late.

But then I am already a Devil, are you with me as well... Who knows. The answer lies within you only. If your Heart replies, you can't be. Otherwise if you can't hear voice of your Heart, you already are. Welcome to My World.

(You can still hear people screaming, tinkling of chains, whooshing of fire in the Background and someone laughing out loud, as one is going away from the door of Hell.)

Thoughts, Memories, ERASE, Ctrl+Z

Countless thoughts, countless reasoning. Man, sometimes I feel, why our brain is made so complex. So many memories, some good, some bad ones, all are there. Some fades away as time passes by, some keep persisting when you need them less. There are some memories, which you try to keep intact, which you are very fond of, which you really need to be with you. But there are some memories which you just don't want to exist, still they clung to you like your dark shadow. Always showing up, when you least need them. But then, they are Memories alright.
I wish, we could have Erase command, which upon issuing would delete some unwanted files. I wish we should have been supplemented with ctrl+z. But yeah, I never would like to have something as Come on, there are some precious ones as well, which I don't want to loose. Hey guess what, we are no COMPUTER. Although, we have created one. FORMAT. Charles Babbage must have gone through the same thought process when he was inventing Computer. And may be Konrad Zuse would have thought upon these minute things when he was developing First Programmable Computer. I wish, GOD should have gone through the same Thought Process. But then, he might have not thought that we would have evolved so much, that we would have needed these kind of facilities.
For past two days, I was having this thought revolving in the NEXUS of my Brain, that why we are provoked by some minute actions of others? Why we do not develop some tolerance towards some bad things? If trains get late, we get angry. When it starts raining, some get irritated. When food is served cold, we starts complaining. Means there are so many other such small issues for which we either complain, get irritated/angry. But then we just express our smaller side of emotions for incidents which are far worse then these. If some blasts a bomb (RDX for example, not some Diwali Crackers), we just say, "Hey, have you heard, some terrorist exploded the bomb is this particular place". And thats it. We just forget about it after few minutes. If someone needs help as he/she met accident, we overlook him/her and move on. But why I am writing these? I am also pretty much the same. But still these kind of things do visit me sometimes.

Anyways, I guess I have blabbered a lot. I should return back to my Coding and Testing. Yeah, thats my job. ctrl+(c/x/z/v) with often Delete keys are my life... At least, here I can revert or delete some unwanted files.

A cloud, A Haze, Nothingness

This is my first blog. Supposedly. Still confused, what to blog. All the feelings and emotions, ideas rotating in the Nexus of my mind. All scattered here and there like Cloud. Or is there really something.

For past two days, I was unable to get into my account here in Blogspot. There were some errors you see in my network configuration and I was so engrossed in debugging my Software that I got little time to fix the network issue. Also I was assuming the problem was in the Router. So may be it was the reason that I overlooked error in my own configurations. But when I saw another colleague of mine
accessing the Internet over the same router, then I realized that may be I had made some error. So then I looked into configuration and now its working. (Say out loud) ITS WORKING...

Enough of this drama. Coming back to the title.

Ever felt that sometimes out of no reason, you feel so emotionally overwhelmed that you just want to out, scream out. Still you just can't roll out those small spheres of saline liquid out of the corner of your eyes or make your throat sore with the Scream. There should be some reason, but still your brain is so hazy that you just can't make sure which incident you should catch to vent out. You want to scream but you just can't. Means its my Vocal chord, its my throat, its my Mouth, its bloody my own eyes. All those incidents which affect us emotionally, all become mists, part of those HAZE, which ultimately becomes part of CLOUD. And it doesn't rain often. And after it rains,

Its not CLOUD or HAZE. Its NOTHINGNESS.